With those wrinkled hands you patted my hair, stroked my skin, and hugged me when I cried when I was a toddler. I didn’t remember but I feel it until now.
You give me a lot of advices when I grown up to teenage. You told me what I have to do and don’t. Told me what’s good and bad. But I only had 13 years to be with you.
When I had a fight with my parents, I want to run to you but you’re not here anymore. There’s a lot of things that I wanna share with you. Telling you I’m not a child anymore. I can drive a car now. I have my identity card now. I’m a college student now. I can go anywhere on my own now.
At my last moment with you. You never know. I sat there in silent while looking at you. There was something else in my heart. It feels strange. I didn’t know it was the last time I saw you. If I knew that was our last moment together, I’ll give you a tight hug and tell you how much I love you. My first love. My true hero.
Its been nine years since you leaving me behind and I’m still missing you like crazy. But. Thank you for your love after all this time. Thank you for letting me feels how to be loved. I will keep all my memories with you in my heart and never forget it.
I want you to know that I’m nothing without you, grandma.